Today was tough. I was already in a frantic state of mind with all I need to do in the next couple days, so I went into class feeling overwhelmed and it was only 9:15am!
I couldn’t keep up with the first breathing exercise. I was convinced our teacher was elongating it just to punish me. I was sneaking breaths like a fat girl sneaks cake. How could I be out of breath already? Then during half-moon, my lower back started screaming at me and some weird pain popped up in my lower abdomen during the stretch. I felt utterly defeated and we weren’t even 10 minutes into class!!!
Basically I spent the entire first half of class struggling, hating myself, feeling unbalanced and generally icky. Eagle pose makes me feel like a pig and by the time we got to Balancing Stick pose, I wanted to just give in and cry. My lower back was SCREAMING.
But then… what’s this? My forehead touched the floor during Standing Separate Leg Stretching pose? Just for a brief moment, it happened! So I treated myself by laying down through the next pose. :-)
I love the floor poses. No matter what happens, we always get to lay down before moving on to something else. Exercise with built-in nap time? What’s not to love?
- Besides feeling angry, shaky, pissy and painful, I made it all way through the first portion of class to one set of Triangle before I had to lay down. That’s new.
- I hate Camel and Rabbit poses.
- Today was the first time since my private lesson that I’ve even attempted the Spine-Twisting pose. I finished strong!
It was a rough class for me but I made it through and I can make it through again.
I’m doing this.